I hope all is well with you and yours.
This site is intended to be a manifestation of my mind, heart, and soul. I hope to chronicle my continued search for creativity, empathy, and balance as I hone my writing and journey through life one day at a time. I’d like to commit to creating something every day and sharing it here. I’m not tied to anything specific; it could be a written piece about my feelings one day, maybe a ‘gram of a watercolor the next, and perhaps a snippet of a song to round out the week. I’d like to include user-submissions as well, because we all have art inside, but often not a place to display what we’ve made.
I like to do a lot of different creative things, but as a maladaptive perfectionist, I start them in my head and there they stay. They don’t get out. They’re not good enough to see the light of day. No one will think they are good and because what I’ve made is a part of me, if they don’t like that, they don’t like me.
I know, fundamentally, that the last few sentences are wrong; thoughts meant to eat at my soul and destroy any light and hope that lives there. This seed has been planted, buried, watered, and fed since I was born, and today, I want to start squelching it. I don’t think it can go away; it’s an ugly, inevitable part of me, but I believe it can be fought.
I’ve been telling a few folks about this project in an attempt to get them to be accountabilibuddies, but I realize that the level of checking-in that I would require would surpass any human capability and am just going to do it myself. If I don’t post for a few days, I’ll feel awful enough to do it. I read a post today about the myth of writer’s block and how it’s just an excuse for procrastination…definitely something I can relate to…I usually use the convenient guise of my perfectionism: ‘Oh, I’d do too good a job at it, so I won’t even do it!’ How arrogant, and nothing actually gets done.
My battle against that seed in my brain starts now. That thing does not define me. I am not that thing. I am my soul, my thoughts, and what I love. My hope is that what I create and share may help others to see the good in themselves and aid in a healing of their own.
Not everyone is a therapist, but most of us have working ears. I can listen and I want others to be heard. You have a voice. Your ideas may be different, but they are valid. You can speak up and make change.
I believe we can heal when we create. We make what is damaged into what is beautiful. If you are an artist and would like to share your work, please feel free to contact me.
My first post is a piece I did at work. I will post and share more about it tomorrow.